It’s been rough.

I have been binging like a boss today. Frankly, I’m having issues with binging more now than I ever have. I pretty much ate an entire bag of chips on my own today and a bag of popped chips this weekend. It’s been really hard to keep that under control. I knew that this was going to be an issue. I’ve read that your body, in a way, rejects your weight loss when you’ve lost a large amount. This is why it gets harder to lose weight. For me, the issue is that I look at how much more I have to climb up Mt. Fitintoskinnyjeans and I get frustrated/scared/excited/crazy. I know I don’t want to stay where I am, but I know that I need to keep eating well and exercising no matter if the scale doesn’t move at weigh in. On the other hand, I don’t want to become complacent, because no matter how happy I am where I’m at right now, I’m still categorized as obese.

So I’ve been dealing with a lot of uncertainty and confusion lately and I’m finally figuring out what my issue is (by writing it out here on él blõgo). I think that it started when I laid out a list of weight loss rewards that became kind of discouraging. The ultimate one was a new computer when I lost 50% of my weight (178.5) which I have a high hopes for when that is but I have to be real with when that will actually happen. The issue is with The Biggest Loser is that we see the weight loss journey as a race and a competition. I was reading a friends facebook page who has just reached her weight loss goal (congrats Brooke: Not On A Diet!) and someone asked her how long it took. When she told them four years, they said “Really? It too THAT long?” To which she replied “Yes, I’m not in a hurry to end this journey because I’m in this for life. Besides, slow and steady wins the race.” I think she absolutely has it right. I know that if I just keep at it, it will all come in time. I’m going to be persistent.

With all of that being said, I’m going to start looking at this journey in chunks: a few pounds at a time. I might not break 200 by the end of this year…or I might! It might take me some time, but it’s going to happen. I’m going to keep counting points, going to keep training for my half marathon in February and I’m going to start strength training to try to tighten my loose skin.

Game time. Get stoked. See ya tomorrow.

P.S. tomorrow’s weigh in is going to be ugly. Time to be better.

Greetings and Salutations yo!

Today I wasn’t great with my food, but sometimes that just happens. I was decently good the past few days and I was doing a lot of walking across campus. Today, I was in my office and not doing much else. Tomorrow, I’ll be doing my share of walking though… 🙂

For breakfast, I had a bagel at work. Nothing special.

For lunch, I had a ravioli Lean Cuisine that was not good and then I had two cups of Cheerios and a leaf-shaped cookie (not a cookie made of leaves.)

Today, I went for a run that started off really well and then just fell off. My first mile and a half was really strong, but then my eyes just started to burn horribly. It was frustrating, but you just deal with it. Either way, I’ll be running 4 miles on Saturday. Stoked for that.

For dinner, Megan and I had a pizza date at Pizza Hut. I had three slices of pepperoni and jalapeños with a salad.

Tonight, I had some Publix soft-serve frozen yogurt with half of a Heath bar and one Reese’s Peanut Butter Cup. If you want to put in to perspective how much candy you are putting on your froyo at your local froyo shop, buy your favorite candy topping in its packaged form and then put it on your yogurt. You realize that you’re putting too much toppings on your froyo. (I have no clue if any of that makes sense…)

So tomorrow will be full of walking and eating delicious foods from across the world… AT THIS PLACE!!!!!!

While there will be a certain amount of self control while being at the Food and Wine Festival at EPCOT, the built in cost of trying everything will help with that. We’ll have to break out the pedometer and see how far we walk. So stoked! See ya tomorrow.

So this weekend, I had a lot of opportunities to make bad decisions with the opportunity to make awesome decisions. I know some people think there isn’t a huge difference between what is organic and what isn’t (which in some cases it’s not much different) but when I spend a little more on organic apples and oranges, I demolish them! I’ll eat an organic apple over some chips any day. Between that and drinking a lot more water, I’ve been making great strides in getting back in to good habits.

With that all being said, I lost .6 pounds this week. Although I’m still at the 228.2 threshold (which is where I’ve been for a while) I feel like I’m due for a pretty big loss.

One thing I need to do is get back in to the gym. I’m starting to feel flabby and soft even if I am losing weight (loose skin?) so I really need to get a pass for Leach and start pumping some iron.

Alright, let’s get to it.

This morning, I had a Smart One breakfast sandwich since you can only eat toast and pb for so long. It was only 4 points which isn’t much at all. (Because it was a doozie of a day…)

Today, I helped put on my first commercial photo shoot. For the past month, I have been organizing, interviewing and other crazy stuff to help this sucker go off without a hitch. It’s a two-day shoot, but day 1 went swimmingly. (Plus I got to drive a golf cart around campus!) Anyway, Florida State University is beautiful, which makes our photographer’s job relatively easy. 🙂

So for lunch, we went to Chili’s to take a break from the craziness. As most of you know, Chili’s is a caloric-bomb trap, so you have to tread lightly. I had the lunch fajitas which are generally safe (again.. trading lightly) because I looked up the nutrition for half of one of the sandwiches and it was close to 400 calories…for half of a sandwich. I had about half of my chicken enchilada soup which was 4 points for half of a small cup and the fajitas were about 7 points (Chili’s has made it incredibly complicated to find out their nutritional information. It’s a little ridiculous.) Anyway, so it was a decent lunch.

When I got home after a long day of driving, walking and more walking, I made some coffee (because I still had a 9:01 pm softball game to go) and then had some Cheerios which was 2 points.

For dinner, I had a Lean Cuisine Chicken Suaza which was no bueno. It was only 6 points but not worth the points. Awe well. I also had 2 points of chips and a 1 point cheese stick.

SAWS: Was at a late softball game, wasn’t feeling well, so I went home because I have a crapton to do tomorrow. No calories burned. Awe well.

So today I got to about 26 points. I might be a little wrong on Chili’s, but I still held my own today. Recently, I’ve been scared of my 28-point count because I’ve worried it’s too low. But today I was fine! I just need to keep it up.

I’ll have some cool pictures of campus tomorrow for Wordless Wednesday. Good stuff. See ya tomorrow.

What up G?
So I’ll keep this brief since I might fall asleep while I’m postingggggggggggggggggggggggg [head on keyboard] So I didn’t know how this was week’s weigh in was going to go. I started out really well with counting and eat my fruits and veggies, but the second half of the week was just full of recuperating from a brutal run and eating making less than great food choices. I usually have an issue with not posting on Friday, Saturday and now Sunday. So from now on, I’m going to at least just post my food portion of it all so I can be accountable.

Anyway, so this week I gained .4 so I’m up to 228.8.

So I would keep going, but my head feels like it is going to explode. To sum it up: I ate a sandwich, I had a lot of fruits and veggies, and I ran like a stud in some beautiful weather. Thanks for reading. You guys are awesome. We’ll talk more soon. See ya tomorrow.